refrain
from saying all the things i will
from feeling my blood boil in my veins
vainly seeking your touch
refrain
of a song so sweet, it takes your breath
and it flows across my neck like a kiss
here,
now all that is and will be
body's caress, lost in brushing lips and smiles
eternal ecstasy in speechless rapture
here
the love personified in your sighs
pleasured half-moans and whispers
then,
the intensity of action, repetition
reflected in your eyes, wordlessly
declaring, touching souls.
then,
heightening, escalating apex.
culmination of our climax.
wanting
spent of desire and devoid of need
simply knowing, life glowing in the embers
smol
Once upon a time,
Time tearing through
Like a ragged river rapid
Ripping my breath
From one wrong turn to the next
This sane mask is cracackaccking
With a sullen stare
And the thump-thump
When she approached
--gone.
The emptiness that remains
Like too many nights spent in space
A weightless vacuum of time
Atrophying my heart.
It's a useless muscle now.
Beating only to
Circulate time.
Will i feel again?
Will i remain?
--apathetic.
Once upon a time,
I tried so many times
Time twisting
Like a snake upon herself
Trapping me here in this
Never-ending loop.
The "wash, rinse, repeat existence"
--monotony
Life seeping sl
Swear by the shallow,
dreamtorn and sallow,
swallow this serving,
swerving towards you.
In horror I watch,
a slip and a botch,
a mistaken word from the blue.
Back breaking I shake,
this quaking mistake,
snatching my hope from the sky.
Then crashing back down,
a scissored sad clown,
cut from a scream and a lie.
Cacophony ceaseless,
the gnashing and creases,
left from the how, when and why.
But my crinkled heart lacks,
a beat and a back,
that I lay upon and gaze high.
Yet wishing deep wells
and the chanting of spells
do nothing to bring her hand nigh.
So I grasp empty air,
and my thousand yard stare,
belies the once spri
the passage opens and through
it now you see, words so few
and far between the echoes
the picture painted shows
always outside looking in
the contemplative fugitive
running from the reality
it comes to terrorize me
in the cold empty places
those dark expansive spaces
that stretch on and on endlessly
asking the questions relentlessly
why can't anyone see me?
my last gasp leaps languidly
into a blood red sunset's canyon
motion so complex it seems
impossible to see
can they grasp a form
a shadow singular wandering
nowhere, a void alone
your souls pass silent
only a glance
upwards, never stop,
so beyond this world
endlessl
Hours of quiet apologies
for blithely broaching banter
when importance and impetus
could be fatal to growth.
But wishing I could speak
this innocuous insistence,
dare not to touch her
delicate heart and I
listen to the soft whispers
where love and reason collide
in spectacular firelight dancing
burning away my indecision.
Dream sweetly soft satin angel
and then again I shall
to hear your voice, your laughter
sing to soothe such sorrows,
as I distant, dream of tomorrows.
tonight you are mine
like gemprecious starshine
breathing carbon dioxide darkness
and expelling oxygen dreams
with your velvetlaced tongue
and i
simply succinct in my sighs
which breed through
chrono-illogical cataclysms of cowardice
push you like copperytaste blood
through my circulatory system
until you reach my heart
and with a sudden springloaded scream
you awaken me to a stale
and sullen sovereignty
your domain my mind, witch
and worn like wooden idols
my words burn you in effigy
at the pinkquiet dawn.
walls bleed memories here
custard color chains dripdrip
and candycane innocent promises
fans twist misted breath as
rain taptaps endlessly
listless stares there
longing lingers here
did you have to
(go away)
let fingertiptouch
like broken toys,
replay mechanical emotion
clockwork ticking hearts
us like living dolls
joke to you perhaps
this accident,
stiff lip slipped trembling
pretend your life away
as cold survival.
refrain
from saying all the things i will
from feeling my blood boil in my veins
vainly seeking your touch
refrain
of a song so sweet, it takes your breath
and it flows across my neck like a kiss
here,
now all that is and will be
body's caress, lost in brushing lips and smiles
eternal ecstasy in speechless rapture
here
the love personified in your sighs
pleasured half-moans and whispers
then,
the intensity of action, repetition
reflected in your eyes, wordlessly
declaring, touching souls.
then,
heightening, escalating apex.
culmination of our climax.
wanting
spent of desire and devoid of need
simply knowing, life glowing in the embers
smol
Once upon a time,
Time tearing through
Like a ragged river rapid
Ripping my breath
From one wrong turn to the next
This sane mask is cracackaccking
With a sullen stare
And the thump-thump
When she approached
--gone.
The emptiness that remains
Like too many nights spent in space
A weightless vacuum of time
Atrophying my heart.
It's a useless muscle now.
Beating only to
Circulate time.
Will i feel again?
Will i remain?
--apathetic.
Once upon a time,
I tried so many times
Time twisting
Like a snake upon herself
Trapping me here in this
Never-ending loop.
The "wash, rinse, repeat existence"
--monotony
Life seeping sl
Swear by the shallow,
dreamtorn and sallow,
swallow this serving,
swerving towards you.
In horror I watch,
a slip and a botch,
a mistaken word from the blue.
Back breaking I shake,
this quaking mistake,
snatching my hope from the sky.
Then crashing back down,
a scissored sad clown,
cut from a scream and a lie.
Cacophony ceaseless,
the gnashing and creases,
left from the how, when and why.
But my crinkled heart lacks,
a beat and a back,
that I lay upon and gaze high.
Yet wishing deep wells
and the chanting of spells
do nothing to bring her hand nigh.
So I grasp empty air,
and my thousand yard stare,
belies the once spri
the passage opens and through
it now you see, words so few
and far between the echoes
the picture painted shows
always outside looking in
the contemplative fugitive
running from the reality
it comes to terrorize me
in the cold empty places
those dark expansive spaces
that stretch on and on endlessly
asking the questions relentlessly
why can't anyone see me?
my last gasp leaps languidly
into a blood red sunset's canyon
motion so complex it seems
impossible to see
can they grasp a form
a shadow singular wandering
nowhere, a void alone
your souls pass silent
only a glance
upwards, never stop,
so beyond this world
endlessl
Hours of quiet apologies
for blithely broaching banter
when importance and impetus
could be fatal to growth.
But wishing I could speak
this innocuous insistence,
dare not to touch her
delicate heart and I
listen to the soft whispers
where love and reason collide
in spectacular firelight dancing
burning away my indecision.
Dream sweetly soft satin angel
and then again I shall
to hear your voice, your laughter
sing to soothe such sorrows,
as I distant, dream of tomorrows.
tonight you are mine
like gemprecious starshine
breathing carbon dioxide darkness
and expelling oxygen dreams
with your velvetlaced tongue
and i
simply succinct in my sighs
which breed through
chrono-illogical cataclysms of cowardice
push you like copperytaste blood
through my circulatory system
until you reach my heart
and with a sudden springloaded scream
you awaken me to a stale
and sullen sovereignty
your domain my mind, witch
and worn like wooden idols
my words burn you in effigy
at the pinkquiet dawn.
walls bleed memories here
custard color chains dripdrip
and candycane innocent promises
fans twist misted breath as
rain taptaps endlessly
listless stares there
longing lingers here
did you have to
(go away)
let fingertiptouch
like broken toys,
replay mechanical emotion
clockwork ticking hearts
us like living dolls
joke to you perhaps
this accident,
stiff lip slipped trembling
pretend your life away
as cold survival.
(then the music begins as)
exotic bass booming
deep puls-a-ting
through our bodies
pullinggrasping her (flesh.toned.bare.midriff.bellychain)
hands g l i d i n g soft
down her arching back
skin pressedagainstmine as
beat beat beatbeats
come faster, coming harder
rhythmic beads of sweat gleam
a jewelled crystal oasis
dripdrip
d
r
i
p
ping down her body
begging-pleading quench this thirst
teasing titillation tickled
with curvacious danger
legs wrapped.TIGHT to mine
feeling molten-volcanic-lava
flowing caressing my knee
grinding ~gyration~ in synchronicity
bending bent back lust forward
domination invading
work
Where has the time gone?
I feel as if I've been asleep for a decade. In many ways, I have.
Occasionally, I stir from my slumber to mutter a few words.
Now I roll back over till 2014. :yawn: :)
Why would I bother submitting again after all this time?
I have no idea.
Perhaps I hope one of my old friends will read this and know I am still here, and still writing. Perhaps I hope someone out there who has never read my words will find it one day and it will speak to them somehow, letting them know there is another who feels the same way they do.
That would make it worthwhile.
Perhaps I just submit for myself. To let myself know I still have these thoughts within, and can put them to paper, virtually or otherwise.
In truth, it is all of these things.
Most of all though, this is a repository of my own memories. I read back upon some
Between entries. Wow...
Believe it or not I have been checking in here from time to time, not that any of the people I watch or who watch me are doing anything with their accounts lately. It's still a good place to see some excellent art and artists randomly!
I'm still writing and drawing from time to time. Not half as much as I used to, of course. Going this long without a muse or any kind of inspiration at all is difficult on the creativity. But I'm also sick of thinking about all that.
So, fuck it. I'll take it all as it comes. Bring it on, life. I'm ready for ya. :)
i try to do my part in the whole response thing, its only fair if you put time and effort into taking in my work. which can sometimes be confusing and rather ... complicated.
but anyway you are very welcome!
in the past i did have blonde streaks most of the time, but i'm all brown now, and it seems to suit me better :]